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I'm Nikki. Still struggling to become a full formed human, I'll let ya know how that works out. I'll write about you sometime if you're not boring. Umass Lowell c/o 2017

cross out the things you’ve done.
Graduated high school.| Kissed someone| Collected something really stupid. | Smoked a cigarette| Got so drunk you passed out. | Rode every ride at an amusement park. | Gone to a rock concert. | Helped someone. | Gone fishing. | Watched four movies in one night. | Gone long periods of time without sleep. | Lied to someone. | Snorted cocaine. | Failed a class. | Smoked weed. | Dealt drugs. | Been in a car accident. | Been in a tornado. | Been to a funeral. | Burned yourself. | Ran a marathon. | Cried yourself to sleep. | Spent over $200 in one day. | Flown on a plane. | Cheated on someone. | Been cheated on. | Written a 10 page letter. | Gone skiing. | Been sailing. | Had a best friend. | Lost someone you loved. | Shoplifted something. | Been to jail. | Dangerously close to being in jail. | Skipped school. | Had detention. | Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. | Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country. | Dropped out of school. | Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. | Had an online diary. | Had a yard sale. | Had a lemonade stand. | Actually made money at the lemonade stand. | Been in a school play. | Been fired from a job. | Swam with dolphins. | Taken a lie detector test. | Voted for someone on a reality TV show. | Written poetry. | Read more than 20 books a year. | Gone to Europe. | Loved someone you shouldn’t have. | Used a coloring book over age 12. | Had surgery. | Had stitches. | Taken a taxi. | Seen the Washington Monument. | Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. | Overdosed. | Been in a fist fight. | Gone surfing in California. | Had a hamster/guinea pig. | Pet a wild animal. | Used a credit card. | Did “spirit day” at school. | Dyed your hair. | Got a tattoo. | Got straight A’s. | Been on the Honor Roll. | Know someone with HIV or AIDS. | Made out with someone. | Played on a sports team| Snuck out of the house. | Swore at a teacher. | Gone laser tagging. | Had a romantic relationship.| Been on the TV. | French braided| Skinny-dipped. | Driven a car. | Performed in front of an audience. | Gone bungee-jumping. | Been to Mexico. | Crashed a car. | Sky dived. | Been kissed in the rain. | Made an 11:11 wish. | Drank alcohol. | Forwarded a chain letter. | Made a mistake.

Hey i wrote a poem for my creative writing class so yeah


We bleed our pens dry
And mix our ink with tears so
The streaks run swiftly
Erasing her voice; his smile.

We turn away; blind
To find a figure waiting
It whispers to us
Inviting phrases, then speaks:

“Those that you write for
Cannot decipher your words.”
More figures emerge
And light then floods the dark room.

The air is quiet
Until the voices begin
They ask us questions
About our laughter lately

They want to know when
We last felt it in our bellies
Has it been that long?
It’s so hard to remember.

Again, they ask us: “Think,
The last time you cried, tell me,
Was it happiness?
Or has it all been sorrow?”

We bleed our pens dry
And mix our tears with ink so
The figures stay close
As our secret reminders.

“I just want to have a completely adventurous, passionate, weird life.”
— Jeff Buckley, on moving to New York    (via terrible)



Liking people is stupid all you end up doing is ruining songs you really liked beforehand

shout out 2 everyone that thinks I’m pretty. I agree w u